stuff from my insides...out

Its that time...as paul geoffrey calls is BLAHggin time =)

So like usual, a ton of things have taken place...my oldest son turned 5 and started kindergarten and my 2nd son is eager to start school as he is convinced daycare is NOT school. In the same breathe, that same week of wonderful event, my grandma Maria Farinas passed away at the robust age of 92. She is now chillin with my grandpa (after being apart for 30 years) and my Papa and2 dear blessings of friends are pursuing their dreams...

Talk about a weird week. It was tough to see grandma one last time and to bury her, but comforting have all my aunts, uncles, cousins and family I never met before around. Talking to my uncles and listening to stories of their youth, their experiences with my pop...filled me with love and healing, while at the same time opened a wound that is slowly getting back to normal. I was flooded with fabulous memories of my grandma and my pop.


Ugh...I had such a great time with everyone, but boy did I do my share of crying again...death...it really an indescribable experience the loss of a loved one.

Speaking of losses and gains...to top it off...two precious blessings of friends moved from the garden state to venture into uncharted territory to follow their dreams. Much like death, you don't know what you've got til its gone. I actually had a reality check and broke down missing my 2 girlfriends. I was in denial. Here were 2 darling angels who have brought my family love, support, prayers and TONS of laughs...and so many fun random nights. What hit me was they are in other parts of the country...no random night. I wanted a random night. They weren't a car ride away...one of them is even in another time zone! I decided to have my own random night and tagged along with lil bro and his boy lol.

But yea...I concluded that although special people are no longer physically near or with me, they are all off for the good. My pop and grandma are resting in heaven. My friends are pursuing their dreams. Regardless of wherever they are, I will see them again =)

Rest in peace Papa and Grandma...God bless you Gah and Tay =)

What a Monday...

UGH...I came back to work today after being off yesterday... and all that things so far since the beginning of the month...I'm cold, my throat hurts, my back feels every chill.

I no wanna be sick! I have Sesame Place tomorrow with Cooks and my boys!

Its been some time that I've smiled like I have lately...God is GOOD. He heard my cry, He knew how heavy my heart was and blessed me with overwhelming LOVE!!!

• FINALLY had Papa's 1 year death anniversary celebration on his birthday. It was weird...it was like reliving the day we buried him, but not as heavy. It was overwhelming all over again to see the support of family and friends, but it was great. HARD, but lighter...ahhh!
• Attended Maia's Bridal Shower =) what a BEAUTIFUL shower. I think I've attended my fair share of bridal showers and this one totally stood out. The love of the Moms and the bridal party, the excitement bouncing off the walls, the beautiful smiles of the bride and groom...giggle!
• Monday, August 18, 2008 is THE DAY when we find out at work whether we stay or go...phew!
• Attended my first "Tea Party" with a few fabulous women celebrating Anne's last few weeks pregnant before baby girl #2 arrives. To be around other women married or married with children...ahhh!
• Finally! Had our surprise despedida for Miss Stacy Got It Goin Ong! No more lies, stuttering or random responses! To see Stacy's facial expressions..THAT was a myriad of emos =)...hehee!
• I went to the WENDY WILLIAMS SHOW today as their guests were REV RUN and his wife Justine. Went with 3 stupendous filipinas representing Asians (Stacy, Leah Pagala and MLE who told work she was sick and the meds they prescribed made her feel acky so she didn't come in after her dr's appt). Wendy was fabulous! Had a yummy lunch and DELICIOUS cupcakes, my fav was the carrot one ;P AND we got free hair spray, conditioner and LACE THONGS size M...OH! HOW U DOIN!!!

And I have Sesame Place to look forward to with all 3 of my boys and their day care on Thursday and Meldiva's shower Sunday.

Its been some time that I've felt this great! The laughs, the smiles...even some tears in between, all fabulous.