stuff from my insides...out

I had an appointment today with upper management at 9:15 AM regarding the status of my position within the company. So many thoughts running through my mind. I've "grown up" with this company...been there since I was 20. God is good, my position was saved. On the one hand, I praise the Lord for a a job. Today's market in just about everything is so volatile. On the other hand, can't help but continue to fantasize what it would've been like to get my severance package, collect unemployment and be home more for my family. Gosh I've changed...I never thought I would yearn to be a stay home mom =) Either way, I'm trying to focus on what He has in store. Although its going to get tougher at work, I'm sure He will sustain me the either way...He always has.

To close the evening, went to a wake for a 36 day old baby. Baby Sarah Ilagan. May the Lord's perpetual light shine on her and may she rest in peace. She was stunning. Absolutely precious. On the one hand, it hurt to see her parents and siblings and see her in her white gown in her tiny white coffin. On the other hand, she passed on Friday, August 15, the feast of the Assumption. She joined out Heavenly Father in the arms of Mama Mary. What a way to go.

Regardless...half full, half empty...blessings all around. Its what we make of it. Its how we try to see light in the darkness. Sometimes its easier...sometimes its harder. With faith, we find solace in accepting and understanding His perfect plan. Patience. Its in His time...all will unfold, a little at a time...much like a rosebud. Its more about taking in the fragrance of its sweet scent rather that in blooming fast.

What a day.