"A VOICE WAS HEARD IN RAMAH, WEEPING AND GREAT MOURNING, RACHEL WEEPING FOR HER CHILDREN; AND SHE REFUSED TO BE COMFORTED, BECAUSE THEY WERE NO MORE."
Matthew 2:18
Angelina Marie + Joshua Eric + Michael
You will live in our hearts forever as you forever dance with Daddy Jesus, Mama Mary and all the angels and saints. We love you forever.
Rest In Peace
Until we meet again
labels: angels
Where do you draw the line between doing what you feel is fun versus what makes others happy? Ever have that nagging feeling that you make a decision that you think is ok but know that in some ways may have the opposite effect on another?
This was originally written on March 8, 2009 and I don't remember. The reason why I'm resurrecting it is the fact that I got a mani and pedi this morning and while I sat there, I had 1,013 ideas of what to write about. Here I am at the laptop...lol using a draft from last month.
HA! I can't wait for Monday...leave for vacation...AND while we are there...no phones, no computers, no cooking, no cleaning...NO NAGGING GUILTY FEELINGS!!!
This was originally written on March 8, 2009 and I don't remember. The reason why I'm resurrecting it is the fact that I got a mani and pedi this morning and while I sat there, I had 1,013 ideas of what to write about. Here I am at the laptop...lol using a draft from last month.
HA! I can't wait for Monday...leave for vacation...AND while we are there...no phones, no computers, no cooking, no cleaning...NO NAGGING GUILTY FEELINGS!!!
Ahhhh, with a big breathe out. I do that alot lately. While I was in Chicago for 2 new product launches last week...I sighed more than ever. I was totally numb out there. Ugh...I'm still elated that I'm home and I came home last Friday. I'm still sighing. I started working out again and have been off cigarettes for a while now. I feel good...but still...tired. Its like I have limited outlets? if that makes any sense? I always have 1,017 things in mind when I'm away from a computer to blog about...then when I'm on this site, I'm like uhm what do I write about. and I digress again. sighs, outlets, changing our lifestyle to get healthier.
*SIGH* the workouts lol...I BUST MY BOOTY working out in a boot camp and get some cardio in 1-2 times a week...not to mention the errands in between and chores that are supposed to help burn calories and raise my heart rate...I feel like I look the same as I did in Jan.
*Super Sigh* We've incorporated healthy whole grains into our diet and increased of servings of fruits and veggies and how can I forget- supplements lol as a result, here are my conclusions:
1. Rice is not supposed to be crunchy. I'm totally feeling the brown rice, but it has to be Korean brown rice and add a lil more water to make it mushier.
2. I'm getting used to taking 7 smelly horse pills in the morning. Yes, all supplements lol.
3. I'm adjusting to OATS being on my toast and totally missing my chewy plain bagel with veggie cream cheese...HOORAY for wheat BLAHgles.
4. We've had something green that was steamed, boiled, blanched or lightly sauteed with garlic and EVOO with all our home cooked meals since Feb 14.
5. I need to invest in Beano. Flatulence is not very becoming, in fact its depressing. Sign of aging. Sheish. I'm ONLY 34.
To think...I started 2009 with an open mind. The funny thing is that I didn't even make a new years resolution this year. I was like OK LORD...and now...my life changed and my perceptions of things changed all the more. So I ask the question again...does it ever just calm down?
*SIGH* the workouts lol...I BUST MY BOOTY working out in a boot camp and get some cardio in 1-2 times a week...not to mention the errands in between and chores that are supposed to help burn calories and raise my heart rate...I feel like I look the same as I did in Jan.
*Super Sigh* We've incorporated healthy whole grains into our diet and increased of servings of fruits and veggies and how can I forget- supplements lol as a result, here are my conclusions:
1. Rice is not supposed to be crunchy. I'm totally feeling the brown rice, but it has to be Korean brown rice and add a lil more water to make it mushier.
2. I'm getting used to taking 7 smelly horse pills in the morning. Yes, all supplements lol.
3. I'm adjusting to OATS being on my toast and totally missing my chewy plain bagel with veggie cream cheese...HOORAY for wheat BLAHgles.
4. We've had something green that was steamed, boiled, blanched or lightly sauteed with garlic and EVOO with all our home cooked meals since Feb 14.
5. I need to invest in Beano. Flatulence is not very becoming, in fact its depressing. Sign of aging. Sheish. I'm ONLY 34.
To think...I started 2009 with an open mind. The funny thing is that I didn't even make a new years resolution this year. I was like OK LORD...and now...my life changed and my perceptions of things changed all the more. So I ask the question again...does it ever just calm down?
labels: randomness
Ma has been home for 3 days now. These past few days with her have been enlightening. Despite not sleeping, constantly moving, trying to talk nicely and smile at the same time...I see the Lord working.
Its definitely been a miracle to see Ma's progress since she first went into the hospital. Ma's a fighter and determined to get better and with every one's prayers for her, I believe the the Lord is truly moving and working in her. She's open to reading about her condition and determined to get to where she needs to be over time. She has her moments, but God is so good, it doesn't last long. As long as we are all honest with the situation, ALL COMMUNICATIVE of our feelings and help Ma recognize her limits, we should be OK =)
I thank the Lord for the opportunity to give back to my mom. We are all learning to adapt to the situation. Doing what we can to get reacquainted with each other with the new circumstance. I thank the Lord even more for giving Ma the grace to receive the help. She's independent in so many ways and now, with humility and the grace from God, she asks for help when she needs it. I am following from Ma's example and trying to do the same.
I know that this is all temporary and in six months t a year, Ma should be back to herself =) but until then, I pray that we do what we can to get her where she needs to be.
I don't know where I am in the whole process of feelings, but I'm definitely BEAT. I don't know where to put myself sometimes. Its rather overwhelming...taking care of everyone and everything and myself.
I can't help but wonder...will there ever be a quiet time for us? Its like there is always something. Is it an expectation I have that's unreasonable...to just be able to chill and be peaceful and not anxious and stressed out?
Adjusting again. All over again. It seems to be a constant cycle. Who knows...maybe when Ma is all better, might end up pregnant next year lol...then the adjusting happens all over again...
Its definitely been a miracle to see Ma's progress since she first went into the hospital. Ma's a fighter and determined to get better and with every one's prayers for her, I believe the the Lord is truly moving and working in her. She's open to reading about her condition and determined to get to where she needs to be over time. She has her moments, but God is so good, it doesn't last long. As long as we are all honest with the situation, ALL COMMUNICATIVE of our feelings and help Ma recognize her limits, we should be OK =)
I thank the Lord for the opportunity to give back to my mom. We are all learning to adapt to the situation. Doing what we can to get reacquainted with each other with the new circumstance. I thank the Lord even more for giving Ma the grace to receive the help. She's independent in so many ways and now, with humility and the grace from God, she asks for help when she needs it. I am following from Ma's example and trying to do the same.
I know that this is all temporary and in six months t a year, Ma should be back to herself =) but until then, I pray that we do what we can to get her where she needs to be.
I don't know where I am in the whole process of feelings, but I'm definitely BEAT. I don't know where to put myself sometimes. Its rather overwhelming...taking care of everyone and everything and myself.
I can't help but wonder...will there ever be a quiet time for us? Its like there is always something. Is it an expectation I have that's unreasonable...to just be able to chill and be peaceful and not anxious and stressed out?
Adjusting again. All over again. It seems to be a constant cycle. Who knows...maybe when Ma is all better, might end up pregnant next year lol...then the adjusting happens all over again...
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