So I told a white lie. I said that I wasn't worried about the present situation at my job. GUESS WHAT. I am now...
We got an email indicating my group will receive the time on Friday via email on what time our appointment is on Monday, 05/18/09 on the status of where I am within the organization. Don't know how to take it. Not sure if I'll be OK or not...
My boss' boss pulled us into her office today. She started to get emotional and expressed how happy she was to work with us, to be a part of our group. She affirmed our talents and what we were capable of as a group and as individuals. I had mixed emotions. Initially, it was as if she was in a round about way telling us she was no longer leading us, but then again, she really has no idea.
Its tough times nowadays. TOUGH. It stunk to have a "pseudo" goodbye...but really it's SO in HIS hands. There is no control over the situation.
After going through this process on numerous occasions, I thought I was numb and indifferent to it all. But wow. It hit me and it hit me HARD.
But what can I do other than let it out and pray. I know He has had something written in the heavens for ever so long. As human as I am, I still struggle with trusting and knowing the future full of hope in store for my family and I.
It would shatter me to pieces if I were no longer have to work at GSK. I grew up here...LIKE LITERALLY. Been here since I was 20. WOW...
I'm bracing myself Lord...clinging to YOU and holding fast to your promises.
REMAIN IN ME...I'm trying Lord! Hook it up Holy Spirit =)
I had no idea what our marriage would be like 6.5 years and 2 boys later. Looking back, my junior and senior prom experiences were cool. I'm just extremely grateful for being past those days of insecurity and questioning and wondering if he "loves" me and if she's "my friend."I have to admit...there are many a times that its tough. It's so easy to focus on the tough things. But wow...in the last month's activities...its been nothing but one enlightening moment after another. Never would I fathom who I am today, how I am today and who is in my life today..and I wouldn't want it any other way.
My life is like wine...it's definitely gotten better over time. What a blessing =) I can't wait to see what it's like in another 6.5 years =)
